Let me just add (because that last post sounded so despairing) that I am otherwise doing really well! I had an excellent weekend and a great last couple of weeks. I was so happy (despite hip pain) and busy and keeping my head more than above water. But this morning was just a bummer, and of course it colored the post I wrote. I'm stressed about some major things in my life that I just don't have any control over; I just have to ride them out, I guess. I just wish it were easier to let the waves take me where they will. But I get frightened that they'll put me off in a worse place. I realize worrying won't help, I just can't seem to turn my brain off. Which is difficult, because I really need to concentrate here at work. I wish there was something I could take that would just shut off all the things I don't want to think about right now. I mostly just want to shut out the world & go back to bed!!! I never get enough sleep. I have to work on that.