Monday, June 04, 2007
rainy day blues
I'm in such a funk. I feel like I just want to start the whole year over. I managed to lock myself out this morning, so I had to slog through the rain in my quickly-soaked jeans and sweatshirt and slippery flip-flops (I hadn't realized it was raining until after I had locked the door behind myself on my way out) to pick up the key from Bethany all the way over in the financial district. She really saved my life, as I couldn't have worked until I could get back in. Ugh. I know I am just feeling sorry for myself this morning, but I don't feel like anything is going right, these days. It's like I turned off at the wrong exit on the highway a few months ago, and can't seem to get myself back on the right road. I feel like nothing is in my control right now, in my life. I hate that feeling. I want control back. How do I get it back??